Jesus is either Lord of all or he is not Lord at all

Time. We don't have enough of it. I've been reading about commitment to Christ, evangelism, organization, and what to do with my down time. All of it thoroughly convicting. Why? Because God has shown me that I am a self-focused slug who isn't going to accomplish anything with her life unless I change my patterns. Patterns of thinking, patterns of focus, patterns of time spent. I am a very passionate person - why not use that energy to pursue Christ. Well, there's the cost. What cost? Fellowship with God, denial of self, true and lasting peace and happiness, joy during hard times, assurance that my life is counting for something.

I think I have spent a lot of my Christian life looking at things from the wrong spectrum. Not all of my life, granted but some parts. Christ is all that matters. Period. We get this vague concept that we can play around with surrendering different areas of life. I've discovered that doesn't work. You think, sinfully, that God is only concerned about the big areas, but to God all sin is big sin. Unfortunately, I've listened to myself too much and not to the truth of Scripture, which is to "put to death" certain things. We are a new creation.
Unless you surrender all to Christ, then you will never truly live as you ought. You will believe a lie instead of truth. You will be getting power from the wrong power supply. Your flesh. Just like a computer does not work without the correct power supply, so your life will not function properly if you are ignoring the Spirit and drawing upon the flesh. What is it you treasure? What is it you fear which is why you do not surrender? There is a saying that says "At the heart of all sin is unbelief." Your actions and priorities, as I have been learning lately from a counselor, reveal what you believe. So important then is the request by David for God to:
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!
Psalm 139:24-25

As a side note, this would be good to pray as well. I know I need it!

Who can discern his errors?
Declare me innocent from hidden faults.

Psalm 12:9